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  BLIND

  LUCK

  Scott Carter

  Text © 2010 Scott Carter

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  Cover design by Emma Dolan

  We acknowledge the support of the Canada Council for the Arts for our publishing program. We acknowledge the financial support of the Government of Canada through the Book Publishing Industry Development Program (BPIDP) for our publishing activities.

  Darkstart Fiction

  an imprint of Napoleon & Company

  Toronto, Ontario, Canada

  www.napoleonandcompany.com

  Printed in Canada

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  Library and Archives Canada Cataloguing in Publication

  Carter, Scott, 1975-

  Blind luck / Scott Carter.

  ISBN 978-1-926607-00-9

  I. Title.

  PS8605.A7779B55 2010 C813’.6 C2010-900891-X

  to Keri and Harlow

  Contents

  One

  Two

  Three

  Four

  Five

  Six

  Seven

  Eight

  Nine

  Ten

  Eleven

  Twelve

  Thirteen

  Fourteen

  Fifteen

  Sixteen

  Seventeen

  Eighteen

  Nineteen

  Twenty

  Twenty-One

  Twenty-Two

  Twenty-Three

  Twenty-Four

  Twenty-Five

  Twenty-Six

  Twenty-Seven

  Twenty-Eight

  Twenty-Nine

  Thirty

  Thirty-One

  Thirty-Two

  Thirty-Three

  Thirty-Four

  Thirty-Five

  Acknowledgements

  About the Author

  One

  When Dave Bolden’s eyes finally opened that morning, it took him a moment to remember the night before. He had eaten a sushi dinner, drunk tequila, played pool, had more tequila, and kissed a redhead with high cheekbones and a perfect smile. He worked past the dull ache pulsating up his neck, through his brain and into his eyes, which felt so dehydrated, they hurt until his memory admitted it: a redhead with jowls and crooked teeth. The cab ride home was even less reliable. He remembered the smell of coffee, the glowing ember of a cigarette, swearing, small talk, honking and a driver named Jim, James or Ju Hee. All the names seemed possible, and whatever his name was, the driver hadn’t looked anything like the identification mug shot of the cab owner on the back of the headrest that framed him as a fifty-something black man with receding hair and dark eyes that belonged in Hollywood. Or was that someone at a booth in the bar who’d drunk wine with a plate of mussels? Mornings were like that for Dave. He struggled to assemble a series of moments memorable enough to create a spark, but with details as elusive as a dream.

  This was the true punishment of too much booze. Left with a body that begged for rest and a mind forced to stay awake, it was as if his brain had decided that if he did this voluntarily, then he was too stupid to deserve the peace of rest. He ran his swollen tongue across the roof of his mouth as he turned his head towards the clock to see that it was eight fifteen. Eight fifteen? Adrenaline shot through his system and forced him upright. I slept through the alarm. Did I set the alarm? The cold floor on his bare feet helped to pull him out of the world of sleep.

  He grabbed a towel from the back of the door and was on his way to the bathroom when his right baby toe smashed into the wooden leg of a cabinet.

  A burning sensation ran up his leg, harsh enough that his neck reared back and his eyes winced in pain. The blow stopped him. He didn’t hop, scream or swear. He just wondered whether or not the toe was broken, until the fear of showing up late for work forced him into the shower. He turned both water handles to see a drizzle that meant one of the downstairs neighbours was also in the shower. His fingers tested the water, but the cool result just heightened his frustration, so he turned the handles off and-on three times between prayers that each twist would result in a surge of water pressure.

  He was about to give up when the pipes hissed and released a steady stream of warm water. Unfortunately, there was no time to enjoy. A quick scrub under each arm, a soapy water wipe of the groin” and he reached for a towel. He thought of the look of disappointment Mr. Richter would wear if he showed up late. It wasn’t Richter’s style to grandstand or yell. The look was more than enough, the one that proved you should know better, work harder, and embrace the opportunity to be employed there.

  Dave had pressed the elevator button five times, as though that would make it come faster, when he realized he’d left his wallet on his dresser. It was tempting to just press on, but he needed money for a cab, so as the elevator doors opened, he pivoted hard on the carpet. He forgot things most mornings. Some days he forgot his cell phone and others his wallet. He’d tried a lot of things, but nothing seemed to help. Leaving sticky notes didn’t work, leaving messages on the inside of the front door had proved futile, and leaving himself messages on his voicemail just annoyed him. Mornings were simply forgettable for Dave.

  With his wallet in one hand, he adjusted his tie with the other while doing his best not to focus on the drained reflection looking back at him in the elevator mirror.

  He knew no morning should start like this, but no one should drink six pints and three tequila shots on a work night either. He never planned to stay out late; some nights he just felt compelled to go out, and whether he had a meeting the next day or a routine nine to six, he would leave his apartment and deal with the next day when it came.

  The cool air helped his head, so he took a series of deep breaths through his nose. He hadn’t reached the corner of his street when he heard someone say his name.

  “Dave Bolden?”

  He looked up to see a face that registered in his memory, although not strong enough to produce a full name. Grade Eleven math, or was it geography? He was an annoying kid who always asked about parties. Jimmy something.

  “Jimmy Kerrigan, man. You don’t recognize me, do you?”

  “Sure I do. My mind was just on something else:’ Dave extended his hand while his eyes scanned for a cab. “How are you?”

  “Good. I’m good Jeez, I haven’t seen you in years, Bolden.”

  Years weren’t long enough for Dave. Jimmy was the kind of guy you never want to see after high school. A vivid reminder of a time when going to the right party formed the pillars of self-esteem, he was desperate and awkward.

  “So what are you doing with yourself these days? Where are you working?”

  Dave’s eyes dropped to his watch. “I’m an accountant.”

  “An accountant? You’re kidding me?”

  “No.”

  “I never would have guessed that, man. What with all the ... “ Jimmy’s fingers rose to his lips in an exaggerated joint-smoking gesture.

  “Well, that was a long time ago.”

  “Yeah. Good times though, right?”

  Dave couldn’t even feign a smile.

  “I’m working security right now. The hours are great, and I’m pretty much my own boss.”

  “Sounds good. Listen, I’d love to talk, but I’ve got to get to work:’

  “Okay. We should get together for a drink some time.”

  “Sure.”

  “Are you on Facebook?”

  Dave nodded, even though he wasn’t.

  “Cool. I’ll let you know when I�
�m going out.”

  Dave gave Jimmy’s hand a quick shake, walked to the corner and hustled across the street to face traffic. He stepped out to hail down a cab, but it already had a passenger. The urge to swear forced him to squeeze the handle of his workbag. He didn’t want other people to hear his frustration or how angry he was with himself. Two more cabs passed. He wasn’t the only one cutting it close, but he felt like the only one not making forward progress. The urge to keep moving led him a few blocks down the street. Every couple of steps, he swivelled his neck to check for an oncoming cab, until one finally pulled over.

  “Thank you so much:’ Dave said, dropping into the back seat.

  “You must be late:’ the driver smiled. He spoke with a cigarette gripped tight in the left corner of his mouth and talk radio ranting about housing prices loud enough to be noticed.

  “Dufferin and Dundas, please.”

  “No problem.”

  The stress intensified Dave’s headache, which now felt like someone was tugging on his brain from a rope attached to the core with fishhooks. The smoke made him nauseous, so he rolled down the window to let in a blast of cool air.

  “Smoke bothering you?” the driver asked.

  “I’m a little hung over.”

  “Fair enough.” The driver dropped his cigarette into the ashtray and crushed it with a large finger. “You’re not going to barf in the cab, are you?”

  Dave shook his head. “It’s not that bad:’

  “You look like it is. You should have called in sick.”

  Just hearing the words bothered Dave. He’d watched his father call in sick too often growing up, and listening to the obvious lies and watching the look of guilt on the man’s face had made him swear never to take a sick day. You take a few cough drops, hug a box of tissue and throw up in a wastebasket if you have to, but you do it at work.

  He arched his neck on the headrest to look out the rear window and into the blue sky. Thirty-five-year-aids should be married. Thirty-five-year-olds should make breakfast for their families and drop their children off at daycare. Thirty-five-year-olds should not be scrambling to get to work with one of the worst hangovers in history.

  “Right here is fine:’ Dave gestured to a newspaper box on the corner across the street from his work. The clock on the dash read eight fifty-six, but his watch read eight fifty-seven. “Thanks again, you saved me.” He passed the driver a twenty.

  “Thank you for holding your stomach in my car.”

  The driver extended the change, but’ Dave waved it off. He waited for a break in traffic with his eyes locked on the name RICHTER ACCOUNTING in block letters on the window of the boutique accounting firm. Positioned between a photocopy centre and a used record store that reeked of marijuana, this was clearly not the city’s business core. The driver of an SUV flashed Dave the middle finger as he jogged past the vehicle to the sidewalk, but he didn’t have the time or energy to respond.

  The familiar jingle of the same bells he heard every workday greeted him, but in his hung-over state they clanged like the sound of church bells at noon. He reached for his temples and did his best to smile for his colleagues. The office was well decorated but small. With sturdy furniture from the seventies, generic colours, and more wood than plastic, the place was a throwback. This was where Dave spent fifty-some~hing hours a week. He’d never envisioned a place like this when his dad had told him as an undergrad that he had never met an accountant without money.

  Four cubicles and a front reception desk made up the visible working space. Shannon, a thirty-something receptionist in black pants and a black top just barely acceptable for the workplace, raised her eyes from a flat screen.

  “Good morning:’ she said in a tone far too sexy for the office.

  They’d bonded after they’d stayed later than anyone at the Christmas party, shared stories about university and made out until she’d panicked about being intimate with someone from work.

  Mr. Richter turned from the water cooler, glanced up to the clock then returned his eyes to Dave. Neither his boring suit nor shaggy grey hair fit his wealth, but money didn’t matter to Richter the way it did to most people in the accounting business.

  Richter loved the work. He valued the interaction with the clients, the trust, and the responsibility. Many sixty-six-year-olds with that much money retire, but Richter never mentioned the word.

  “You look tired.” He gestured at Dave with his cup of water.

  Dave offered a meek nod while walking past the boss to a pot of coffee adjacent to Irene’s desk. Dave had never figured out why Richter had hired Irene. She was in her mid-twenties, full of energy, and chose play over work every time. She talked on the phone to friends, took numerous cigarette breaks, surfed the Net, and kept eBay on her desktop. She pressed hold on her phone, lowered her headset and spun her chair towards Dave.

  “Out late last night?”

  He raised his mug of coffee as if toasting success. “Very.”

  She opened the top drawer of her desk, and the white tips of her French manicure stood out against the black surface. .

  “Headache?”

  “I’m feeling the burn.”

  She removed a bottle of Aspirin from her desk and held it up as he passed so he could take it from her without breaking stride.

  “You’re the best.”

  “I know.”

  Dave wished he’d made out with her at the Christmas party. Irene was someone with panache. He scolded himself while he walked past Todd, who smelled like hot dogs. The man didn’t even raise his eyes from a document long enough for a perfunctory exchange, but Dave liked it better that way. Todd was so bland, so overweight, such a shell of who he wanted to be, that all he did was remind Dave of the ultimate futility of life as a number cruncher.

  Dave stepped into the washroom, opened the first stall door and stepped away with disgust when he saw a toilet full of shit. He thought of Todd’s heavy frame hunched over, with his cheeks flushed and his podgy fingers flexed around his newspaper.

  “Christ.”

  He wanted to say more, to open up the door, drag Todd back into the washroom and yell, Is this any way to leave a toilet? But he couldn’t. Todd wasn’t the one who was almost late and already on a bathroom break.

  He entered the next stall, removed a few strips of toilet paper to cover the seat and sat down. In a smooth motion, as he had done many times before, he tapped two Aspirin into his right hand and chased them with coffee before putting the coffee cup and Aspirin bottle on top of the toilet paper dispenser. Bent over, with his hands cupped on his head, as if by stabilizing it he could stop the pounding, he pleaded for a dear thought, until a loud rumble warned that he should look up.

  This was the type of noise he knew shouldn’t be happening. Too random and violent to be deliberate, it was the type of chaos that instinctively provokes fear.

  He listened carefully to assess the situation, but an explosive sound followed the rumble, so he put a hand on each side of the stall in anticipation of the ceiling caving in.

  He waited for paint chips, then plaster chips, or the entire second floor. The sound of glass shattering and metal crumpling filled the room as his arms flexed, but the ceiling never fell. He raised his eyes with caution to the lights above him to see that there wasn’t even a crack in the surrounding paint, then it became that clear the noise had come from the main room. Two deep breaths and he pulled up his pants from his ankles, exited the stall and walked towards the main room, unsure whether or not he wanted to see what awaited him.

  The washroom door creaked as he opened it, so he pushed it hard to get it over with and stepped into the main room to see two-thirds of an eighteen-wheel big-rig truck filling the space. Steam blew from the grill, making everything hazy, but Dave could still make out the tail end of the truck on the sidewalk and road, which made it clear that the vehicle had blown through the business’s front windows.

  He scanned the room, but it took a moment for the details to
work past the shock. Shannon’s legs stuck out from the debris, Mr. Richter lay face down beside her, and Todd’s back and broken arms were visible beneath the truck’s side. Dave had expected more noise, but the room was remarkably quiet except for the faint sound of plaster dust, glass and metal settling. The quiet confused him, as if this were all a bizarre nightmare, until he looked across the room to where Irene lay partially covered by rubble.

  A human-sized dent in the wall above her body provided evidence that the truck’s impact had propelled her into the plaster. The room looked surreal, but everything about the pool of blood around Irene’s head was real. The colour, the mess and the finality were all vivid enough to force Dave to admit that this was really happening. He wanted to rush over to all of them and help somehow, but he couldn’t move.

  The truck had destroyed the building and killed everyone he worked with. Shock defied his will, so he stood there absorbing the unbelievable until the sound of approaching sirens tore through the quiet with increasing intensity.

  Two

  Ruby Bolden looked at her husband like she wanted to shake him. “The front lawn really needs cutting, Jack. The neighbours are starting to stare.”

  Jack was too engrossed in the pages he held to hear anything beyond the possibilities running through his head. In the previous minutes, he had completed more math than he had in four years of high school. Number of races, multiplied by the horse’s odds, multiplied by the wager. If only the rest of life was so linear.

  “Do you think you’ll get to it today?” Ruby persisted.

  Jack still didn’t respond, so she put both hands on the table where he sat and leaned forward so that only a glass bowl of marbles separated them. “I said, are you going to get to it today?”

  Jack looked up, and the nerves above his right eye twitched so strongly, he had to rub the socket. “Get to what?”

  “The lawn. The neighbours are starting to stare.”

  “So let them cut it.”

  His eyes returned to the pages. Number of races, multiplied by the horse’s odds, multiplied by the wager.